Twilight 11/21/08

Twilight was fun. It was a little funny because Edward (I heart him) was comical and you could hear the teenagers girl giggle. Why weren't they in school? I have no idea. I guess this was a special occasion.

All in all the movie was good. Jacob was a little disappointing - I didn't picture him to look like that. I liked Charlie. Alice was cute. The make-up reminded me a little of Edward Scissorhands. It stinks having to wait on the others to come out.

Some excitement - FINALLY!

I'm counting the hours down...

Twilight comes out in a few hours. Me and mom are going to see it tomorrow at 1. I'm leaving work early so I won't be stuck with the teenagers texting and talking on their cell phones the entire movie. If you are a Twilight fan, you may or may not know what this cake is about to the left. I made it for a friend of mine's daughter. She's into graphic design and she "jazzed" up this picture of the Paramore singer. FYI - they are a band on the soundtrack for Twilight so I thought this went perfect with my post.

How do I do it?

Honestly this day (April 15, 2008) is all a blur, but I can't explain how a hug like this makes you feel. Many, many days have passed since the boys funeral. I can't tell you how many times Cary's wrapped his arms around me like this to comfort me. This is how I make it each day.

And at night? a little Lunesta doesn't hurt! (thanks butterfly)

It's so simple?

It's been about a month since we found out our IVF transfer didn't take. Since then, we went to see the doc for our follow up visit. Just as I expected: he let us know the test was negative (like we don't remember that every day!), gave no answers (which I guess by this point I shouldn't expect any), and told us we could try with the frozen embryos whenever we wanted (forget the fact that we forked out thousands since last NOVEMBER and are so emotionally drained from it all) That simple.

It's very hard knowing when to try again. There is that constant fear.

Halloween was a bit strange. I love seeing all the kids dressed up in their costumes. I did not particularly enjoy being invited to churches for "trunk-or-treat." Not that I am against churches or anything like that. I just do not think people take into consideration how things like that effect the "non-parents" population. I'd love to go, I just want my own child there!!!

Test Day - October 1, 2008

Well, after waiting on the phone call ALL DAY - the pregnancy test from our "fresh" embryo came back as negative. I was sure it took since the doctor sold us on the fact we only needed to transfer one embryo since it was top grade. I knew I should have listened to my gut and gone with two. The bright side, if there is one, is that we still have the 5 frozen embryos to try again and I won't have to go thru the stomach shots. We will go back to the doctor in a few weeks for a follow-up visit. I assume he will remind us that it was negative and demand more money to try again...

Of course we are upset, but we will try again. I have faith things will turn out great - I just hope it's before I'm 40!

Embryo Transfer Monday, September 22, 2008

Monday, September 22, 2008 we had our embryo transfer. The morning started off with breakfast at Krystals with Cary. We then went to acupuncture for my "relaxation" time. Then off to ART. We made the decision to transfer two embryos but when we got the ART the doctor said that our embryos were top grade and they recommended we only transfer one. So, we decided to follow what they suggested and transferred the top embryo. I felt comfortable with this decision especially since we had embryos to freeze this round of IVF. After the transfer, we went back to acupuncture for my "post transfer affirmation." Let me just tell you, it's hard to relax when you can't stop giggling because some lady is telling you to "feel the energy flow from your hands to your uterus" and "picture the embryo that was transferred, it's floating in your uterus looking for the perfect spot." After that, we went and ate lunch at my favorite place Joel's and then went home. I relaxed on the couch the rest of the afternoon.

We ended up with one transferred and 5 frozen embryos!

We got very lucky!

This is where babies come from

In my world, this is where babies come from. Needles, big nasty bruises, acupuncture, a little of this and a little of that!

I meant to post this earlier but time got away from me. The shots all went well. My one little ovary worked VERY hard for us! With 20-25 follicles the doctor was able to retrieve 19 eggs on Wednesday (9/17.) Yes, from one ovary!

Thursday - Saturday 14 eggs had fertilized and divided. VERY GOOD NEWS!!!