It's been a while...

It's seems a lot has gone on since my last post. I'm not a faithful blogger...

1) Christmas
2) New Years 2009
3) 3 OH!

CHRISTMAS EVE - Cary and I decided to go to Braden and Brody's grave and put up a small Christmas tree. While we were there, we decorated the tree with battery operated lights, garland and ornaments. It was nice for the two of us to have this time together. We feel so helpless and it's the least we can do to honor our children. We are going to plant the tree in our yard as a memorial to the boys. This will be our tradition every Christmas Eve. I'll try to post a picture of our little tree later.

CHRISTMAS - It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't great either. Let me just say it was hard this year, but once again I put on my fake smile for everyone. I love watching all of the kids open presents - it makes me happy. At the same time my heart aches because my children aren't here! We found out Christmas Day that Brad & Christine (brother in law & his wife) are expecting their second child. Not something I was prepared for so I didn't react as well as I should have. I don't think I had any emotions at all. It was a shocker, but I'm happy for them. They are really great parents!!!

NEW YEARS EVE 2009- Cary and I aren't party animals. We were in bed by 9 I think? REAL EXCITEMENT I know!

JANUARY 5TH 2009 - I hit a milestone and turned 30. This is not a number I thought I'd be at yet. While I'm glad I had another birthday I also feel I'm much older than last year. Let's just hope I don't start getting gray hair anytime soon.

Time seems to be ticking away...